`i will alwaes lurvee euu** -- x.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

haiz.. recently soooooo much happened. so little things to say. or is it because i dunno wad to say? I feel pressure.. every where... really really hate the feeling. I feel sad. no no... its not really cuz of my guy . but more of the habittat and.. and.. friends. kind of freaky huh... they are the ones who gave me company and happiness and everything. yet they are the ones who gave me the worst pressure. i mean. c' mon... life is too short to think so much right?? i think i noticed my first wrinkle yesterday!sheesh... ( did i? ) somehow.. a curtaing of gloom have descended on me.. i feel like maybes... i wont live long? or that my boy will be gone. i desperately don't want that to happen.i've given my heart to him and dont really feel like collecting it back.

hAIZZZZ..

___missing euu*~

Monday, December 12, 2005

haha... hmmm.. i remeber my dear always say that his love will never ever change. Buddan he dun belive that mine wont.. he said if changes are made, it's me to him not him to me... are u sure???? but i hope through this i can change it =))

I stepped into the room,
unsure and unclear.

I started alone
without a friend,
i chose to disconnect
from all intellects.

Until the last moment did i regret,
not getting,
not friending,
not knowing you well.

I hesitated in getting,
in asking your number [ from a teacher ]

When i finally did
get the number,
u me messaged like
forever.

You told me u loved me,
" are u sure?"

Maybe its my lacking of confidence,
maybe its my resistance.

I opted to distrust,
i opted to back fast.

u told me to forget,
u told me to restart.
This relationship---
all over again.

finally i started to accept,
i began to realx,
i began to hope.
that i can finally say
" ILOVE you"

___missing euu*~

Oh, wqomderous night of full moonnight
That gave me life and took it too--
Took the love that i never knew
From what was once lost and tragic--
Give me now its strength and magick

haha... i take it as a spell i made up..
nice?

___missing euu*~

Sunday, December 11, 2005

[ RIVER ] copyrighted=)
Walked to the river,
near and clear,
curbed my desire
to drown it here.

Waited a moment
to give my serious consideration,
i closed my eyes and found no
hesitation.

I took my first few baby steps,
reminding me of my past.
To once again wonder
of the sweet things i'll
bypass.

I took my once last breath,
to jump in clear,
to the waiting river near.

I turned my head,
bowed down low.
It felt wrong,
It felt right.

I felt a sadness,
an inexplicable ach.
You came to explain,
like a shooting star across
a starry sky,
proving me to be wrong.

Your sincerity,
your heartfelt warmth.
Saved me,
saved me from a river...near and clear.

___missing euu*~

Thursday, December 01, 2005

hmm... finally sch going to start liao.. then i can fianlly have to get outta the house to get some fresh fresh air.. whew... its kinda boring getting cooped up at home and being bored to argh... wanted to try something different this holidays.. what should i do? well.. dying of hair is wayyyy in the past, i did it last year laio.. kinda regretted it ... a new piercing? sheesh.. i already have 5 holes and let 3 close up... waste money lo..then nothing liao le la.. maybes i can try for being on a diet or jogging everyday in the mornin, or...OH YEAH... christmas reaching, then i gotta go dig a 'enormouse' hole in my pocket.. hmmm...u all better appreciate it ok..
oh yeahhhh...
yesterday darren's birthday =)
haha..very funny lor.. it started out with him meeting below my house, then we took a leisurely walk to the interchange( but quite hot lol).. then .. i realised that i forgot my wallet! alamak...then we walk back.. then he say take taxi..then he pay lo... insist but no use...he won.. then we watched chicken little and it was honestly very hilarious..thennnn.... dun really need to say the rest lol...
He said he liked my present! wheee... [ as if he dare to dun like=)]
den i miss my frens like loads... sigghhhhh.. likely that i and them going out for christmas.. happy happy =)
tata.. i gotta go do more compos and etc to earn money for christmas....

___missing euu*~

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

苦苦坚持经已没意思为何不可以
由我去决定谁才应该在我心中拥有位置
当你下次要玩伴时手机按到没电时
情愿你别来找这失势女子
想起当时蠢也没法子纯情得可以
男生中只得你赠我戒指
原来就算最爱我不过暂时名次每隔两日都改变位置
一变四四变十二来到这礼拜更加讽刺
*何以我变了你的十六号爱人
随便碰上哪个她都比我更有趣吸引
偶尔我亦愿我是别人能转个化身共你再蜜运
我以前是冠军怎会惯做后备爱人
曾经也上到最高逐渐滑落谷底的暗
看见未来双脚已在震因我说过爱是无憾才会受教训
*谦卑的人只要做亚军仍然很兴奋
谁知吞声忍气就变季军
谁人话我会纵你勾搭别人连跌到四五六七都会默允
忍了你你更薄幸能叫我跌到永不超生
repeat *不想再竞逐你的吻我怕嬴了惹公愤面对几千个敌军
终日查问是谁幸运做你本周冠军
何以我变了你的十六号爱人
随便碰上那个她都比我更美更吸引
最怕以后位置再下沉完结了也好恨
也再别恨我以前是冠军怎会惯做后备爱人
曾经也上过冠军现在份外深深不忿
你那热唇她吻我又吻
当你变了这样随便谁个又要吻

hehe...this song is a cantonese de lo.. joey yung de, 'si lui hao ai ren' really really nice!
but of course, its to be sung in canto, later if sing in chinese will very weird lol.. next time i teach u all how to sing this song! haha.. joking.. later some people like shuan interprete the song wrongly!

this days of mine is like spent in my house being bored to death!!!!????!!! haixxxx.....

but of course la.. christmas is coming!!!!! time to sing and celebrate!! yippeeee... me and marc and frens are gonna go out and celeb!

happy happy!

i've beeen doing so much work i'm like dieing under the load... its not sch work lo, its assesment!
i've been gettting so much new assesment that my bookshelf is groaning under the weight of these such farking freaking bo9oks...

but i must be guai guai.. later i cannot go out celeb christmas and birthdays, then die lol...

then i have to start saving liao... do 1 compo got 2 bucks, report writing 2 buckd, letter 1 buck, chi compo 2.50.... sheeshhhh.. then if i study well everyday got bonus...

u all freakin frens better appreciate what i put in for u all ok?

i'm like slogging away to earn money to save up for 'mas....

life is so sucky...

and marc... there! see? i write bout u lol... say i din...

lemme see.. i have to buy charles present, qi present, marc present, gen's present, sammy[samuel] present, most probably serene's also...then also got darren's present....

arggghhh.. life is soooooo phew...

cant wait for the outings though=) it'll be fun!

hehe.... darren's birthday tommorrow liao... gonna celeb with him.. gotta now do more work then can convince parents to let me go out longer =P

___missing euu*~

Sunday, November 27, 2005

its been er.. how long? quite long i think..i dun really update my blog for a long time anymore lor...

mainly becuz there's people for me to share my thoughts with mah..sam, gen, marc, serene, kat...

at least they understand what happened and why i did it this way right?

kinda stupid i know but hey... i ain't smart.[imaginne...33\39 in class. Disgrace!]

this year.. whew.. so much things happened, so little reason for such. dun think i can really describe it in so little words lor...

friends? not all of them stay... most floated away, but those who stayed are those i really really treasured most.

like er? sam[ as in samuel], marc[ a bit brash.. but who cares?] , serene[ very understaning!],kat[ very intelligent!], gen[ the best companion!] ...

i really miss u guys like buckets ...

lemme think....hmmm.. can floating frenship be saved? maybes.. who knows?

i think i miss him her whoever...

tralalalalal.....

i realised somethin! i love 3g! more than 2f lol.... a lil upset that i can go e bbq..

have to coop at home and rot... by doing homework! did like loads and loads and loads of assesment!!!! i getting sick of seeing chinese liao...

=((((

then wad.. no mobile.. haizzzzzzz.... ZzZzZzZzZz....

very very sorry leh darren... din call u.. parents yeah?

wei!!! enjoy ur chalet tmr le la.. get lots of present!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

haha... enjoy it k? and people.. please update ur blog la...

___missing euu*~

i'm sorry if i din write for a long time okayes? i promise to everyone that i'll update my blog often frm now on !

___missing euu*~

Thursday, June 16, 2005

i'm like soooooooooo bored, count this, i haven been outta the house fer 2 daes.. count that 2 that is not even counting the daes that i spent only goin ou to buy lunch......AAAAAAAARRRRGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i'm habing school-sicknesss, if i dun go back to school to see my frens, i'lll go like erm nuttttxxxx..........................damn it man, home really sux if u are in it for the 20 hours a dae, the tv sux, the radio sux, the food sux, the washroom sux... everythin sux.. good man... i m hatin this!

___missing euu*~